Monday, May 15, 2017

What matters?

Good morning Mom,
Happy Mother's Day..only a day late!
I can't believe that it has been a year since the last time I sat down and did some blogging. Life has changed. Most days I just go through the motions to get to the next thing/day. Is it really that I'm busy or is it that the busyness of life distracts me from what matters? I have noticed this year that I have been struggling with relationships. I yearn for relationships that are meaningful, deep and supportive, but along with those strong relationships comes hurt and disappointment. Building good relationships requires me to grow and I have to endure some growing pains. My heart is still tender and guarded which means the the struggle to deepen relationships will require me to let my guard down. I didn't notice this struggle until recently. Now that I am aware of why sometimes I just want to curl up and keep to myself instead of reaching out, I will pray that God will take me where I need to go. I pray that God will strengthen relationships, bring new ones into my life, and renew ones that I have let go of. This list sounds like God is going to be busy, but with HIM I can do all things!!! I guess I just needed to write this out because 6, 7, or 8 years ago, we would have had this discussion. You probably would have noticed my attitude and set me straight...you're my Mom you helped remind me of what matters....people matter....love matters....following God matters!
Now, here's a catch up of that busyness...our family has been crazy growing this year! Mia has 17 days left of 7th grade...can you believe it!! She is almost as tall as me and can't wait to reach that status. She is still very sweet and tenderhearted.  She has been on the A/B honor every quarter while also playing basketball in the fall/winter and volleyball in the winter/spring. She has also been involved in youth group (StuCo) at church. She has been participating in the student led Sundays with worship. She loves to hang out with friends. She is an amazing big sister. She would continue to melt your heart!! I know that she misses those intimate conversations that her and grandma used to have As we begin enter the teenage years,  I wish she still had you hear for those conversations. I pray that we have surrounded her with Christian, adult women to support her and us through this next phase of life.
Liviana Grace is so different from Mia. She is very free-spirited, dramatic, and fancy with some sassy. We are encouraging her strong characteristics to curve towards positive things...like being a good leader, bringing out her artsy side, making sure she includes everyone and making sure she shares her ideas kindly. Whew!!! Sometimes we think the girls have flip-flopped ages. Livi loves to giggle with her friends, play Legos, paint, dance, gymnastics (we need to get her in a class again), and wear sparkles. She struggled with reading at the beginning of the year, but now it's amazing to hear her read. She would rather do math. She is very much into technology, which we have to monitor..hahaha!! This would melt your heart,too...she loves to be in the kitchen, watch Food Network, and cook right beside me. Watch out world, hear comes another generation of good cooking!
And, the girls love taking care of their 6 month old puppy,Nori. We got the girls a puppy for Christmas. Both girls has some tears of joy when the saw her for the 1st time. Nori is a little black Cockapoo. Oh my goodness is she fun to have! She melts my heart as well and Nori is working on Kurt.
Kurt has been busy painting and applying for art galleries. In the fall he was accepted into a gallery on a short term agreement basis in Raleigh, NC. So, the 2 of us went to Raleigh for a long weekend. His work is currently there, but there hasn't been as much communication as he had hoped. Not to long after we returned, he found out about a brand new gallery opening in Evanston, IL. He had applied to the call for artist add and was accepted. This is very exciting because it's not just a show, he is there and a part of something new. The Evanston Ice House Gallery will open June 1st ish.
As for me, I just keep plugging away at my job in RPS205 as a Assistive Technology Consultant. I love it!! Both Kurt and I are active youth sponsors and enjoy working with the junior high and high school students. Watching God work in their lives brings me to my knees. This group of students has taught me so much. They are brave, courageous, thinkers, full of energy, open, and yes there is some of the "other" teenage stuff, but we just pray God changes that. It's fun to watch Mia grow and mingle with friends. I remember how much you and dad were a part of supporting the youth. Thank you for making sacrifices to teach me and many others about God's love during our teenage years!!
Kurt and I are also small group leaders and have a wonderful group of individuals in our group. God is working in our lives as we humbly try to lead this group. Watching young adults interact and learn from more seasoned adult Christians, is so exciting because they are learning from each other.
I am going to close for now. My hope is to write more often.
Love, Jenny

Saturday, April 2, 2016

Let it Bloom

Dear Mom,
Wow, yesterday flew by and I didn't sit down and reflect on purpose. Mom, when I sit down and write about you, your legacy, the memories we have shared with you and especially the memories that are being created without, my heart overflows with sadness and sometimes it's difficult to get over that hump. There is joy and hope in my heart as we reflect on your life as well. Joy and hope that together one day as brothers and sisters in Christ we will rejoice and celebrate, dance, and sing with Jesus!!! Yesterday, was a day to make happy earthly memories as we remembered you. We spent some time at the condo with grandpa and grandma Anderson, who are now staying with Dad and Laurie. We went with Dad to Baskin Robins for a scoop and I choose Rocky Road.......is there any in heaven? Then the five of us went to your grave where your earthly body was placed on a cold, rainy day on April 8th five years ago. As we chatted for a moment, we talked about the flowers that were placed there in your memory and how we can't believe that you have been away from us for 5 years.After we visited, Kurt and I and the girls headed to Madison to pick up a computer for Kurt's birthday. Before we went to the mall, we made a special stop at Orange Tree Imports and I was able to show the girls and Kurt this wonderful hidden treasure of a place. Oh Mom, all the kitchen stuff that I have but I was still in awe of the crazy, cool stuff that was there. I also shared the memory of the cake decorating adventure that you sent Kynda and I on there!! So much fun!! Thanks Mom!!
As someone wrote to me for encouragement yesterday, "your fingerprints" are still here! Mom, there are phrases I say, ways I stand, things I think, and how I live that remind me of you every single day. Your memories live on in the lives of so many because you lived life with others. You listened to people's needs, corrected their misunderstandings, read scripture with them, prayed with others, taught, laughed, cried, cooked, shared and the list goes on but you did these things because you LOVED Jesus and wanted others to share in the umbrella of blessings that HE has for us. Thank you!!!
If you are reading this and you have not accepted Jesus as your Lord and Savior, please take some time read your Bible, pray, and decide! If my Mom's love for Jesus touched your heart and that seed has been planted, it's time to water it and let God help it bloom! Maybe the thoughts of losing loved ones hurts you so much you fall away from sitting in the presence of God, please take time to allow HIS arms to wrap around you and spend time with HIM. This is the prayer I have for my family, brothers and sisters in Christ, friends, loved ones, children, husband, aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents, and the list goes on! May God's love surround you!
Thanks for reading and sharing this continued journey with me/us!
Love in Christ,
Jenn

Monday, November 16, 2015

It's been too long!

Whew Mom, it's been a little over a year since I shared our earthly happenings! Part of the reason it's difficult to share is because I struggle to have to sit down and compose something. Beginning last in the spring of 2014, I started the journey of getting my master's degree online. I should say "we" started this journey because Kurt and the girls have been fabulous. They have chipped in with chores, meal planning and preparing and understanding that mommy has homework sometimes!! Our adventure has almost come to an end. I have my capstone project as the last task to complete!!! During this adventure I have written several papers, read many articles, created 2 websites, made a YouTube video, researched the newest and latest technologies to support student learning, had Kurt design a teacher's instructional manual, and really had some fun learning!! I have found some inner nerd!! You probably already knew I had it in me!!
Kurt has been busy supporting me and this adventure and working on Messy Palette's adventure as well. He is so amazingly talented and watching his artistic talent grow is so much fun. He has continued to teach art classes for kids and adults, shown his art work at Art Scene and Starline Gallery in Harvard, and shipped his art to a couple galleries across the states. He has also entered a few of the outside art shows, which are difficult because of weather.He is now beginning a new adventure. He is going to be a part of a co-op art gallery here in Rockford. We are looking forward to where these new connections and opportunities will land. Kurt has also been a mentor for a student as part of a program called Kids Hope. He gets to hang out with a little kiddo for an hour a week and just share life and give encouragement to build confidence.
Mia is in MIDDLE SCHOOL!!! AHHHHHH!!!! She is still in the gifted program and working hard to stay on the AB honor roll! She also plays on the basketball team and doesn't get to embarrassed when her dad, grandpa and great grandpa cheer for her!! She is still sweet as can be and her heart is staying tender. She still likes to read and could walk around with her nose in a book 24/7 if we would let her. Her friend Megan moved this past summer...right before middle school and I thought life would never be the same. Life for her isn't the same, but she is finding different friends and learning more about them this year. So she's spreading her wings, which so far has been positive. She does miss Megan because they shared a deep friendship, but it's so cute because they email back and forth.
Little miss Livi is in 1st grade at Washington in Mrs. Adam's class. She loves it. She, too, had to make new friends this year because she changed schools, but she's doing fine. She still loves to talk and has a memory that knocks our socks off. She only reads when she has to, but she likes it. She would rather play or doing something creative!
Now, for some rough news....within the last weeks the family has been through some rough spots. God is watching over us, but we are all on our knees talking to Him to carry us through. Grandpa Lowman has had some heart issues this past summer but thought is was something wrong with his foot. Come to find out he had a main arty in his right leg that was blocked, causing tissue damage. Thursday, he had surgery and he seems to be recovering nicely. The doctors are still watching his foot and it sounds like he also has some damage to his heart, which may call for a procedure.
We also found out that Laurie has a cancerous nodule in her liver. She has had a chemo treatment and is on a liver transplant list. She will have a MRI next week to see if the chemo treatment has effected the nodule. She has been in a lot of pain and discomfort. I hate cancer! It is just so ugly!!! Especially for those of us that watch our loved ones suffer, the pain, discomfort, nausea, not eating, YUCK!! Since I began this post, Laurie has had 2 rounds of  chemo and this week is going in to Loyola to have 2 blood clots removed.
I will close this post for now! I hope to write again before Thanksgiving! Oh do we miss you!!


"but those who hope in the Lord
    will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
    they will run and not grow weary,
    they will walk and not be faint."  Isaiah 40:31




Sunday, August 24, 2014

2014-2015 School year

Oh my Mom....little Liviana Grace is going to kindergarten and Miandria Love is going to be a fifth grader!! We are so excited for our girls, but nervous at the same time. I know it's been said many times before, but kids grow up soooo very fast!
Let me tell ya a bit about your grandchildren...
Mia is getting so tall. She is a bright 10 year old. She loves to be active, can swim like a fish, enjoys being in the kitchen, can read fast and loves to read, and is very social!! She has a sweet, tender spirit and is a little nervous about the new school year!
Livi is a wildfire! She has curly blonde hair that is crazy beautiful! She is very creative, artistic, active, has a fantastic imagination, and loves to talk!! She also has a little drama in her!!! She loves to snuggle (I wish they never grew out of that). She is ready for kindergarten!!
Mom, I wish you could be here to watch them grow! I know they would make you smile! Well, it's off to another year! Love ya and miss ya a bunch especially to share these precious moments!





Tuesday, December 17, 2013

"it is was it is"

Dend  Mom,
Oh my how time flies!! I can't believe it's been so long since I have posted. There still isn't a day that goes by that I don't wish we could pick up the phone and call ya or go out to lunch. As you and Dad said when we first heard the word cancer, "it is what it is"! We have carried on, moved forward....sometimes dragging our feet, and continue growing physically and spiritually. Oh how I look at the world through different eyes knowing that God could sweep anyone of us up to be home with Him at any time. Saying good bye to loved ones and close ones at the end of a gathering is more precious and treasured. We don't know what God has planned for us, but we do know He has prepared a place for us when this life is over.
Well. my main reason for beginning this blog is to keep track of the happenings and my emotions and thoughts as time passes....mostly for Mia and Livi to have. So, here goes a quick run down of our earthly life....in August of this year we bought our very 1st house!!! We love it. And with that news I must share that Dad has remarried...to the wonderful lady that owned this house, Laurie. So with those events, we were BUSY!!! Mia is in 4th grade this year, enjoys a variety of activities, like volleyball, music (she got an electric guitar for her birthday), reading, hanging out with friends, ice skating, playing in the snow, running around outside, riding bikes, telling jokes, and the list goes on. Livi is 4 and we will be registering her for kindergarten in about a month!!! She is full of drama, is creative, loves art, has lots of energy, keeps us laughing, has curly hair that gets comments every where she goes. Kurt opened Messy Palette Art Studio in our basement and is doing well. He has sold some pieces of art and continues to move forward with the business. I have recently reentered the OI department (orthopedic ally impaired  itinerant teacher...switching to assistive technology)...love it!! Speaking of job...I gotta go because I don't want to be late!
As I close this written reflection, my mind and heart are saddened because you are physically not with us, but we are peaceful and joyful. We reflect on the moments we were blessed to share with you because you and other loved ones fought the good fight, shared God's love and were faithful! May we continue to fight the good fight and one day meet each other at the pearly gates!!
Love ya Mom!!!

Thursday, April 18, 2013

Good morning,
Well, it's been a while since I have posted, but that doesn't mean that I don't miss you every day and wish you were here. Our lives have been very busy this past winter with church, church youth group stuff, Messy Palette Art Studio, Mia's school work, and my job. Spending time with family and friends is such a blessing, but we need to work on doing it more often. I think keeping busy helps us to continue to move forward. It is hard for Kurt and I to reflect on the memories we shared with you and his Dad and also Noni and his grandparents. We both miss those conversations, those "building" character moments, but we remember things you've taught us and move forward.
What has gone on since January??? Mia has joined volleyball....she's pretty good! She has had to do her 3rd grade speech, took ISATs for the first time, enjoys playing with her little sister, and hanging out with her friends. Most importantly, she made the decision to follow Jesus on February 9 and was baptized on Sunday, February 10th!!! Yippie!!! It was so awesome when she came up out of the water, we could hear clapping and cheering from family and friends! Probably nothing compared to the celebration the angels put on!!! Mom, she is growing up so very fast. Now, there's Livi....oh Mom...she would crack you up!!! We thought Mia had personality when she was younger. Let's just say that Mia taught her little sister and her little sister added a few tricks of her own. She loves to spend time with her Daddy at the Art studio. She is so very creative, has a great imagination, and loves to help Mommy in the kitchen. Kurt is plugging away at the studio. He has hosted some birthday parties, 1st Friday events, teaches classes, and hosted his 1st Art Scene!!! He provided spring break camps and will be doing those for summer, too!! Along with traveling to a couple of the learning centers around town to provide classes. He continues to press forward with this creative journey....also wishing that his Dad and you were able to be here and give advice along the way. I have been busy trying to keep the family going during the school year. Teaching continues to be a rewarding career...thinking about getting a master's degree!!!!!!! Not sure, yet......but just wanting to continue gaining knowledge about education! I was in the church kitchen last Wednesday cooking for the family night!! Can you believe it, I love being in the kitchen. I made Hot Chicken Salad, no dressing fruit salad, mixed veggies with lemon pepper seasoning, and lemon poppyseed bread!! Brought back some memories!! I was given many compliments, most of which mentioned that I had a great teacher!! Oh man, I couldn't agree with them more! I had a wonderful teacher, but not just in the kitchen! Mom thanks for everything you taught me, even when you thought it wasn't sinking in. Miss ya bunches!! Love ya!!

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Always treasured

Well, Mom, one of the most difficult decisions to make has been finalized! Dad and I have designed the marker that is to be placed at the cemetery to honor you. How do you sum up someone's precious life in 2-4 short phrases??? We hope that the words and symbol that were chosen will continue to be a reminder to live a life that honors our heavenly Father. I also believe that this was a difficult task for me because it is the last thing to do for you and the words are permanent. I know that we can show honor by living lives pleasing to God and we will continue to share memories of you with each other and we can bring flowers to show how much we miss and love you, but this just feels like this is that last thing in the process!
Still miss you bunches and love ya!